Every New Beginning Comes from Some other Beginnings End.

So much on my mind this evening. 

We spent the weekend looking at houses because we have decided we really want out of this apartment complex.  This was such a confusing situation....we liked two of the three areas we looked at a lot, but how do we know what is a good choice for us?! We really don't know anybody here, which makes it that much more difficult.  And, much like in the Springfield area, people have their favorite areas...Chatham, Rochester, Pleasant Plains, New Berlin/Loami, etc.  It's such a difficult decision for us.  So, we've decided to go to the different areas each weekend and spend a day there, see how we feel BEFORE we look at neighborhoods or houses. Perhaps that will make the decision easier.

On Monday, we went to Gillman Honda in Houston and traded K20 in on a new 2011 Accord for me.  It was bittersweet, trading K20 in.  She was the first car that I bought ON MY OWN, without anybody's help.  She was all mine.  This car belongs to both Chad & I.  I suppose it's fitting, new state, new life, new car.....

The car itself is gorgeous - it's actually the same car I wanted when I got K20.  It's a 2011 Honda Accord EX-L V6 and fully loaded.  I actually moved up a step or two.  Everytime I have seen a pearl Accord, I wish I was behind the wheel - now I am!  She smells amazing, nothing like that new car smell.  And she stays so much cooler when parked in the 100 degree heat than K20 did!

 Goodbye K20!

Hello, Pearl!!!

Today was a stressful day for me.  I went to the specialist this morning and was very nervous about the entire situation.  Thankfully, the doctor was absolutely wonderful.  He was a perfect choice.  He had a sense of humor and make Chad & I both feel very comfortable.  The bad news is that Dr. Yana was right - I do have cervical polyps.  The polyp I have cannot be removed in the office, because of it's location on my cervix.  So, he wants to do a hysteroscopy and a D&C.  He said that after I have all of this done I should be just like new. (I certainly hope so.)  

It's a lot for me to take in right now.  For one, I just moved here and am so far away from my friends and family.  I am so lonely that at times it hurts.  Yes, I have Jen here which is a plus.  And, we met a really nice couple around our parents age at the pool on Monday.  Granny below us is so sweet, too.  But it's just not the same...I miss my family and all of my friends at the PEC.  

I'm aggravated since I went to the doctor right before I left and received a clean bill of health.  I'm pretty sure we're going to fight the $700 bill that we got in the mail last week.  

At this point, I'm just wondering why all this stuff is happening to me.  What did I do to deserve it?  Why is it always me?

Dr. Yana called Chad yesterday, and he has to go back next week for bloodwork and a follow-up.  His cholesterol was high and his liver enzymes were off, this happens every year.  My grandmother is apparently having problems with her memory and not feeling well, I keep telling myself that she is 90 years old and we knew this sort of thing could happen at any time.  Doesn't help me with guilt, though.  I feel horribly that I'm in Texas and don't get to visit her as often as I'd like to.  Chad's grandma, Teapot, is in the hospital right now.  She's being treated for Diverticulitis and a CAT scan today revealed an abscess between her uterus and bladder.  There's just so much going on that at times it's hard for me to think straight.

I know I have some great friends back home who miss me, and I am so thankful I have such wonderful friends who will listen to my worries and let me get it all out.  It does, however, make me miss some friends that much more.  Especially, since they have kind of "disappeared" from my life.  

I guess nobody said life was easy.  

The good news is that this is the beginning of the end.  And, after surgery, it's a new beginning for me.

As George Michael sang, "Ya gotta have FAITH!"